Blogging?

Every time I have to write a paper I realize that I enjoy writing very much and wish I would have time to blog. Then I think about how nobody reads blogs anymore. I think that's cyclical though. If I wrote more regularly, people would read more regularly... assuming I have something worth saying.

I like to think that I do sometimes.

But there's no time for that, and that's where the problem lies. Instead of writing this I should be working on my 16 pages for class, so that's what I'll do. sorry blog world.

a petition.

For a long time I've prayed and wondered about what God's will was for me. I went through much trial and brainstorming to try to figure it out. I've often prayed to and waited for God, hoping He might reveal Himself. But within the past year or so, it seems I keep hearing from various sources that God doesn't care nearly as much about what we do as He does about who we are. I'm slowly beginning to realize what God's will is for me. Read 1 Thessalonians 5, 16-18 "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

Sometimes I'm not joyful.

Sometimes I don't pray much.

Sometimes I'm not thankful.

I sin, I fail, I fall, I stumble. I forget to seek God, I forget His rules. I am far from perfect... And I'm the one waiting for Him??

All this time I fear I've had it backwards. God is waiting for ME. I'm sorry God.

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Yet somehow even though I'm beginning to come to realize this, I'm having a hard time earnestly seeking Him. I need help. I'm looking for advice, prayer, accountability, admonishing, direction, assistance, diligence, persistence, and steadfastness. But mostly I just want the fire... and I need all the help I can get.

Because I'm not too busy. I'm just not making the time. I'm not saying it'd be easy, but it's undoubtedly doable.

Pray if you can. advise if you can. I need more than I have.

I need a strong desire and fire for Jesus.

People don't really care.

Prove me wrong.